Am I a Healing Ho?
When I first started learning healing modalities, I wanted to heal everybody.
I would almost force myself on people and tell them that I could help them. It took me a few years to understand that not everyone is looking heal or ready for it, and others just aren't open to receiving the energy.
I continued to work on friends for free if they asked for help. I like giving and helping. It feels good. I figured if I have this ability to help others, why wouldn't I share it?
A few weeks ago, while listening to a live radio show on my phone, the host unexpectedly put me on the air with her intuitive guest. Her first words for me: Stop working for free.
Damn, I thought. A friend just asked me to work on her and I know she has no money, and I recently let another person come to a Group Healing for free. The message came again from another intuitive.
I checked with my guidance and they're all nodding yes. So what do I do with my friend who is asking for help? What about people who can't afford to pay?
I was guided to program a crystal for my friend and give her instructions on what to do with it.
I was told It's okay to have people come to the Group Healings, because their energy is also helping the group, but a barter for services is best.
I understand this, but it doesn't sit too well with me. Of course, I should be paid for my services, but I also want to help people. Every person who is healing and waking up to their inner truth acts as a beacon for others. Is that not enough of a trade? This work changes lives and gently radiates out and touches unsuspecting people.
But I have bills to pay.
I was asked by my teary eyed friend why I did not work on her like she had asked me to.
I told her I was doing what I was guided to do and that I gave her the programmed crystal to assist her in her healing. I was getting big intuitive 'hands off' messages. Then I remembered how one day she told her neighbor about me and basically offered my services for free to this woman. It was a bit shocking to me that someone would expect me to go around and work on people for free and not even ask me first. My intuition said no and I didn't do it.
I don't claim to have gifts. I would say I have abilities and am perhaps wired a little differently than some people. I worked hard at getting where I am energetically, and continue to focus on my own growth and expansion. There are a lot of people that call it a gift, and believe that I am obligated to share this 'gift' with the world.
And I will.
But I'm getting paid.
Because hos get paid.